Waiting for something to happen.........

Have you ever eaten a meal so delicious that you didn't want to take the last bite?  Or read a book that was so engaging you didn't want to read the last page?  That was my day yesterday.  I had such a great day, I didn't want it to end.

Lately, I've been feeling like I'm trying to swim through molasses.  My limbs are heavy and I'm beyond tired.  Although I usually feel pretty good in the morning, by early afternoon I feel like an inner tube with all the air sucked out of it.  But yesterday, I was looking forward to having a few friends over for supper and spent my day preparing.  Part of the fun in preparing a meal is imagining your friends and family enjoying it together.  The group that gathered here last night was a lot of fun and everyone seemed to enjoy everyone else.  Ahhhh.....  I wonder why we don't entertain more often?  If I had people over regularly, it would surely help me to keep the house clean!

I'm wondering if my exhaustion has anything to do with my unsure future?  I've been waiting for almost three years for an answer about a grant.  I'm in this constant state of expecting an answer in the next few months, but it just drags on and on........  In the meantime, I've been unable or unwilling to look for a different source of income because I keep thinking and hoping the grant is going to come through.  But things are reaching a critical stage and I'm going to have to make a decision about what I'm going to do next with my life.  For me, that's huge!  Because my heart has been invested in Haiti for almost 30 years and I'd love to do something that involves helping the people of Haiti.  I can't imagine having a job that is nothing more than a source of income.  I really want to be working at something I feel passionate about.  Maybe I'll give it one more month.......?????